Too High (and Not in the Good Way)

I never forget that I have the diabetes. Sometimes it doesn't seem like a very big deal, but it's always there, if only because I am checking my sugar 4 times a day and watching my carbs.

The past few weeks have been like that, with it like white noise in the background. I think that's why I haven't really thought to post in awhile. That and I'm a suckass blogger. It was so nice and I didn't even realize it.

Tonight I had the highest blood glucose reading in recent memory (quite a bit higher even than the night that our book club hit a place called Rick's Dessert Diner, which is just what it sounds like). It wasn't out of nowhere really, but I didn't expect it to be quite that high (it was 159, which most diabetics would say isn't high at all, but I have gotten a level of control that keeps my after meal numbers in the 120 range...but this was before dinner when I was pretty hungry). The funny thing is that I didn't even eat anything "fun". I was getting ready to go for my short run tonight and I was starving. So I had a few Triscuits, which are a bit carby but low enough for a reasonable snack. Then, right before my run, I had something called a Shot Blok, which is meant as nutrition for longer runs. Usually when I have any of those type of supplements for energy before a run, the exercise stops my sugar from spiking.

So what happened tonight? I'm not exactly sure, and that's the especially frustrating part. Was the energy gel just too much sugar for one sitting? Was the 22 minute run too short to prevent the high? Is it just dumb luck?

I'll probably never know. All I can really do is watch for a repeat and hope it's a one time thing.

So much for having the diabetes not being a big deal. Sneaky bastard.

Second Try is a Charm? Maybe I Won't Erase THIS Post

Bah. Apparently I have to learn how to deal with posting on Blogger without accidentally erasing everything I just wrote. I am freaking brilliant.

Uh, what I wrote earlier was way more articulate and probably more interesting. The gist of it is that I'm struggling with making effective food choices while I'm off my regular routine. Last week I was in training for work and this week I'm on a jury (seriously!). When I'm in the office or at home, I have a great level of control and am able to plan pretty effectively. Anyway, I'm noticing that I have to really plan and take every opportunity to snack since I can't just take a break whenever.

I've always had issues with what I eat and when (before diagnosis and after, if I wait too long to eat, some irrational bitch takes over my body and threatens to get all stabby), but I feel especially sensitive to it now. I don't believe it's gotten worse, just that I'm so much more aware of what's going on. Ultimately it's a good thing, but there are moments when I want to throw my glucometer across the room.

I'm a non-stop party, I tell ya.

New Post, Now With 100% Less Bitching

For once, I feel at one with having the dreaded D. Just for this one shining moment, I feel in control and at peace.

I saw my doctor yesterday, and it was one of the best doctor's appointments ever. Like, the only way I could have been happier was if she told me that I have a condition in which gold nuggets come out of my posterior. Slightly painful, seriously icky in terms of clean-up, but ultimately a winner for me, if not the place I sell said gold to for many dollars.

Mmm, dollars.

Anyway, since crapping gold was not in the cards for me yesterday, I am happy to settle for good results and a doctor I don't want to kick in the teeth.

First, my efforts at control of this amusement park of a disease appear to be paying off. My A1C numbers (a test used to show average blood sugar over a 3 month period) have gone down slightly from 5.5 at diagnosis to 5.4. This may not sound like much, but the standard for diabetics is between 6 and 7, the lower the better. 5.5 was a low place to start, because we caught it early. I was happy there was any improvement there at all. Also, my blood pressure is decent (although controlled with meds...I know, I am only 34!!!), my triglycerides are normal, and my good cholesterol is very close to normal. My LDL cholesterol is still high, but I am working on that. The best part of this though is that I've lost 18 pounds, so far.

Second, my doctor actually praised my efforts. She was astoundingly nice to me. She touched my arm in a reassuring way. She actually had a bedside manner.

I will happily take a break from the crabby. Just this once, of course.